fall on the inside.

So i have been listening to the new copeland album, which is pretty terrific i would say go check it out, the new album is called you are my sunshine. the countdown is now down to 42 days, its getting pretty frightening. Im actually going shopping with my mother to buy some things for my apartment. she actually gave me 3 little vases that will look nice in the kitchen on the counter top where there will be stools for people to eat... food. I started working at the north shore boys and girls club and i have been having a good time! played battle ship pretty much all day, but you know, its really great there. I was actually going through my pictures in california on my face book and i saw that i commented on how i missed the weather and how i am there some time, and hah who knew right? i'm actually thinking maybe its for the best i leave now then stay. i'll get to learn a lot on my own out there, and teach myself on how to live alone, cook my own food, etc. even though ill probably order in or just pick up food out there too, but i do love grocery shopping cause i'm pretty weird... as to what brett tells me at about 4 in the morning every night.. thanks brett.

LA=49 days

hair cut and islanders game tomorrow =]

the ink is running towards the page, its chasing off the days

so, i don't really know where to start, but it's been a long week. i have a lot to do, and so much to handle. i wish that some people would tell me what's going on, and if they are okay, cause i worry, and love them. But as to what to handle i need to start sewing my ass off, and i need to go to Math. I missed so many classes, i hope they don't kick me out because of it. i cant miss another one! i think i have 3 more classes left of it, and thats all.. i need to talk to the bunt and tell her what's been going on and why i didn't go this past week. 3 more times? thats not bad at all.. and for english i just have go to 7 more times, so i really don't mind at all. its not going to be any trouble. I love my english class, we all hang out right after and its my friend kristen ( who goes to post) and i surrounded by all guys so its all good.. we all went to hill wood which is the community center at post. it has the tiniest cafe' but whatever, you get curly fries and your good. 

i'm starting to see who i am going to really miss here, and it has basically come down to 4 people and my mother and grandmother. My mother will be coming to visit me and hopefully my grandmother also. but the friends.. two of them i don't want to leave at all, and the other two i'll just miss a lot. I think i'll be having a going away party on the 12th. it should be fun! but will be oh so saddd!!!! =[ 

run for cover.

i wont say i'm in love, i wont say im in love with you.

So, my flight moved closer, i'm leaving on new years day. i had a long conversation with my dad today, mostly about how i should get on track before i leave. which i pretty much should get myself together before i do leave. i have to pack in the second week in december to send everything of mine out there. that means i have to start packing in about 21/2 weeks, and write down everything i need. it's getting pretty stressful, seeming that i have to leave everyone here for quite a while. 

Anyways, enough depressing-nesss that makes me upset! on another note, i had a girls night the other night, which was pretty much one of the funniest thing ever. we woke up just giggling, and the whole night consisted of that. other than that, i need to get my hair cut pretty soon. before i leave too. so hopefully right before the holidays.  its getting a little to long. My last day until summer at madden is on tuesday. And then ill be working at the boys and girls club before i leave, which will be so much fun. everyone there makes me laugh so much. i am pretty excited about that part. Other than that, i'm at my dad's house right now and have to head home, i'm going to make a list of what i need need to get, and bring with me. i can't believe i'm doing this all ready...

brett newman, i hate you.

show me how to feel.

so nothing has been new lately, i just have been getting back into the shape of sewing, and making my patterns. Halloween is coming up, and my best friend kristen and i are being wilma and betty from the flinstones. hahaha, should be interesting, and believe me there will be so many pictures! i am pretty excited about that one. I leave for California in 72 days, which is going to go by so fast with the holidays coming up and all i'm starting to have dreams every night of living on my own, some nights its good and others, bad. I guess I'm scaring myself already, but i know when i get out there it wont be that bad, but who knows right? I am going to visit Lauren out there on the 8th. Just staying a weekend, but it should be fun and interesting anyways! and i am excited to meet her finally! yayy i actually know someone, and will hopefully know more people there when i have dinner and hang out with them.